Saturday, April 30, 2005
tired and stressed
hi everyone! how's everybody.. i'm super duper tired slept at 3am and had to wake up at 8 for choir prac ythat ended at 4pm! haiz.. there goes miss babes again... scolding scoilding and asking us to dig deeper to bring the emotions up... but doesn't she understand i'm only 16.. i CAN birng the pain from my heart out... but it is hard VERY hard pull it back after th song.. i cant handle the big emotional change of being happy den sad den happy again! i try my best GiVE alll my painful and happy memories in the song.. but all i hget is that she is saying that it is not enuf and we have gotta DIG DEEPER! CAN"T SHE SEE THAT THE ALTOS WORK SO SO SO HARD?! for sectionals altos ALWAYS FOREVER end the last becuz we bother to go thru EVERY single detail... we even got to stay back AFTER choir practice or school to do the three songs,... until like the locking uncle chases us out! haiz... so tiring... i'm totally drained and i don't noe what i can do anyu furthur i seriously ahve given my 100% 200% 300%400% etc etc... and the altos are breaking down... becuz we cant that the pressure... that no matter how hard we practice... we are always NOT ok.. the sops has got the least time in prc but they have the least prob too.... haiz... my euyes are swelling from the tears in the afternoon... today was such a horrible day! first scolding from miss babes next all the lain se frm my sajc frens... i'm super duper tired of entertainign all of them.... they dun really seem to care anymore... everytime i go out with them they dun noe how much pressure i hav egot to take from my parents when i go home... i think i'm gonna crumble soon... and stupid nigel... just cant take a prank and just scolded a the freaaking f-word at me... arsey hole./... what ever and the rest just look at me like i'm crazy.. watever.... they have clearly soon and chosen their side.... so so long my sa frens... i think thjey are jsut some passer bys in my heart . they have disappointed me and hurt me.. i dun wanna contd with them... take care strangers u all were really once one of the no. ones in my heart....
~huihui loves
8:37:00 PM
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